June 29, 2009

By the way, the time on my blogs is completely wrong
its actually 8 hours too early but I dont know how to change it!
so my last blog was at 21.43
Im listening to a beautiful song by Johnny Flynn that Iv never heard before, I think its called Brown Trout Blues.
The weather today has been really hot, its like were in an exotic country. It was doing my head in because the heats making me distracted from my coursework. But when as I was sitting here in the intense heat, as if someone had just clicked their fingers it began raining like a monsoon. It was amazing, so I stuck my head out the window to cool myself down :)
Im learning chords at the moment, D was simple but A is just so hard! You have to try and fit all 3 fingers on one bar whilst having them all near to one end so It dosent sound flat and it frikking hurts my fingers!
Watching The Specials perform at Glastonbury (on the telly) has ignited my love for them. When they did 'A message to you Rudy' I couldnt not get up and Rasta dance around the living room.
Id really love to see The Prodigy live, my brothers were really lucky last night as they were at Glastonbury and went to see them. It was electric, you could see just from watching it on telly how incredible it must have been to be in that crowd, it was even exciting watching it from the sofa. I got up to dance for this too but then I felt like a twat trying to rave dance on my own.

I should be doing coursework but this is the first time in ages Iv felt like writing.

Yesterday in work my boss called me into the kitchen and said to me and the other girl that she was going to have to cut our pay down from £5 an hour to £4 an hour (near minimum wage for 16 year olds) It was a pretty big blow, because Iv worked hard to get two pay rises and felt like Id earnt it and I was on £4 when I started and it was shit. Id get £28 for 7 hours of really hard work, its not like sitting behind a till. when I got payed it didnt feel worth it at all. By the time Id get home Id be walking like John Wayne and could barely get up the stairs its that labouress. But when things happen to me, in that moment I dont act on my emotions or sort of feel how I really feel? I act graciously, smile and say yes everythings great. Then I go off feel all hdshjdgs and then I wait till Iv got over feeling emotionally and think about it rationally. So when I got home I decided that I couldnt work for £4 an hour even though I said to pat at the time, no thats absouletely fine! I understand, you were so generous giving us £5 in the first place! .. =|
So I think my delayed reaction wasnt quite suitable, because it would have been so much better if Id said it then and there. Im like this in personal life too, Ill let people be unkind to me and then I just.. I dont know! Get angry a good time after its actually happened, like Ill be standing in the kitchen making a cup of tea and Itll hit me. It dosent make sense, and my friends cant predict my reactions to things and how I deal with them, either can I.
Its amazing how little things can change your mood so drastically, before I was feeling pretty shit and now Im feeling so mellow and happy :) Ciao for now

June 17, 2009

Im actually addicted to this thing right now, just aimlessly scrolling and clicking for the most part of the day, sad I know but when Im home bound I tend to do pointless things
In a day at home I could be practicing sewing and changing my dresses, playing the guitar, reading, learning to cook new foods, doing god damn coursework
but no, i end up just lolling around alternating from telly to computer throughout the day, doing nothing paticularly worth doing
hmm, maybe tomorrow I shall have a day of worthwhileness! And also keeping to good sleeping hours, rather than getting to sleep at the times of 3 and 4am.
Im feeling really chilled at the moment though, I think Katies conversations on messenger are having that affect on me :)
Im really looking forward to the YNot Festival more than anything. My mum said "all youll need is a bowl, cup and tent" Im so excited :) Im going to buy a classic backpack for the event, or just borrow my Dad's mission man backpack. Everythings not brilliant right now so I cant help but pine for the future. Right now I just want to fast forward time to September next year when Ill hopefully be trekking off to London for Uni. Joshua Radins lyrics are ridiculous right now, I can relate to them so much, and his voice is so soothing :)
I have a lot of coursework to do to hand in for Friday, alot, and I dont feel like Ill finish it. But I guess its completely in my hands whether I do or not so I better get cracking!

June 16, 2009

I went to London on Saturday with my family, just for the day and had such a brilliant time. My family had managed to find us freebie return train tickets there and back, for seven of us! The train ride along was pretty spectacular, being used to our Merseyrail trains, Virgin trains feel fit for a King.
I think I had my most interesting experiences travelling on the tubes. The first one, we were all laughing crazily at my mum, just being my mum, and there was a peculiar man that looked like a hobbit from the shire with the most startling blue eyes I have ever seen!
Me and my brother Dale split off from the rest of the family for the day, and had six hours to make the most of our time in London. As we were walking through a really lovely village in London, (not sure if London actually has villages or not) trying to find some place to eat we heard a massive rumbling noise .... actually I wont get into a long winded detailed story about some mundane ten second happening, but basically I thought a plane was flying at us, and the only thought that ran through my head was just the statement 'im going to be bombed' Id of liked to think if I thought I was about to die, Id be thinking something more.. I dont know, filmie
but yeh, it turned out to be them fancy jet planes that make red doodles in the sky.

First stop was the Science Museum which Dale was really keen to go to, while I wanted to go to the History one. But we ended up in the Science Museum for two painstakingly boring hours. And I felt like I should act like I was interested in it all, because otherwise Id feel like a bimbo, but I guess not everyones a space child.

Then we headed for Camden Town, I was most excited about going to Camden as its supposed to be a really cool, 'happenin' place, full of the artistic type. It was absolutely swarming, it was jam packed with freaks. 'Its like everyones trying to be something different, or out freak each other, but everyone ends up doing the same fucking thing' - Dale. It reminded me of being on my families last minute , budget holidays to Spain with tacky stalls, except the stall owners were trying to sell us drugs rather than Straw Sombreros. We both bartered and bought a pretty leafy dress for me, and Dale bought a green hippy man coat for Glastonbury. After sitting at the lock (canal), further into Camden I began to imagine I was some place else, in busy Bangkok with the hundreds of asian food stalls wafting around, the beating midday sun, and countless hippie and craft stalls, and finishing off with a drink in the shade of a japanese type building (me and rach cant find the name for it)

I know this blog is getting pretty A4ish, but I cant stop!!

Next destination was Leicester Square (the place recognised for having alot of pigeons). As I jumped on to the packed tube, I saw two spare seats and swooped for the first and signalled Dale to get the other one, but an old man dived on it! I looked momentarily shocked, his wife sitting opposite me seeing this started pulling faces at me, so without even thinking about what I was doing I began to mouth 'Whats your problem?' in a silently threatening manner, I was moving my lips but not making any noise. She got the jist. But moments after that horrible encounter, three korean girls got in the tube, and surrounded me. They were all staring at me, then laughing and chattering away in Korean, sounds mean but I could tell they were being friendly, and in embaressment I began to laugh, so we were all about 10 inches from each others faces, speaking different languages and all laughing together, it was brilliant :)

Ill post pictures up soon!

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