I have become lazy with blogging, which means I dont blog anymore
but heres some pictures and things:)


Heres me in this lovely jumpsuit I bought a month back in my favourite vintage shop in Liverpool, its covered in apples and Im guessing it dates back to the early 70's, shame I havent got long to make wear out of it till the summers over

Heres my room, its pretty new :) and dosent really have much furniture besides a bed



Ahh obession Incense, wed been lighting these continuously all night and hadnt drank a drop of booze when everything for me started to spin, then I felt queezy, then I swayed around the room for a length of time. Kate thought I was just acting like a freak, until after drawing a frightening picture of a doctor on my leg with the words I CAN MAKE YOU BETTER next to it, and then found that she too was swaying around like a baboon we realised that the room was swimming in smoke from the burning incense. I found it hilarious but Katie rather unsettled by not being too aware of what was going on, but yeh I looked it up on the internet and apparently if you smoke incense it has the same sort of effects of Cannibas but its reallly dangerous, so dont note that down somewhere..! and it does just knock you out and make you feel queezy so not the best thing



Thats from our less than delightful night of sleeping in a forest.. looks beautiful, it was in the morning but not in the dead of night. We were with four guys who thought that instead of pitching up a tent at midnight, it would be cool to just.. walk around in the forest all night wearing capes?

I was in work with Kerry on sunday, I wasnt looking forward to it and was only actually going in to decide if I really didnt want to stay working here any longer. But getting past the initial awkward greetings with my boss, the hug and the plastered smiles I went off into the shop. Each day you work there its with a different person, and I work in the shop serving people. Then one or two people work in the kitchen making the food. And youll spend about 7 hours in a room the size of a lounge with one person, so it really makes the difference if you hit it off with that person! But we talked all day about so many different things, the most random things, and she brings out a side of my personality I really like. And shes so interesting and cool, is fascinated by insects, thinks sloths are beautiful and feels sorry for them, and wants to go on a turtle conservation trip, and Froyd is her hero. I feel like I have a crush on her writing this, this blog is really random, I just plucked this subject from thin air
but anyway she persuaded me to stay for the rest of the summer, until I go for gold and try land that sainsburies job. That'll be the day.
When I come back from the festival and my London trip with college hopefully Ill have stuff worth writing about!:)

Recent circumstances just made me very stressed and upset so whilst in the midst of pacing around my room revved up my ridiculously poofy black skirt caught my eye and I had this sudden urge to dress really eccentricly, but it really calmed me down. I think its like how when people get a sudden rush of emotion like that and so they go walk it off, or have a bath or eat chocolate. I used to walk it off actually, I loved walking on my own and really enjoyed my own company! But now I dont really enjoy it at all! Not that I dont like myself, but I just prefer to be around people and doing things all the time. I like to be busy, and have jam-packed days and nights filled with people, I must be a city girl at heart :) I really need a friend for company right now, but Katherine (so the two kates arent confused) from across the road is away, and Maria seems to have vanished off the face of the planet. Dales trying to find Lost for us to watch to cheer me up but is not succeeding, I actually fancy the Ps3, bit'a crazed mafia killing wouldnt go a miss! (dont try read between the lines on that one) I have such an urge right now to go splurge shopping and spend hundreds. So many urges that should be supressed!

Far fetched inspiration

I really love Twiggy, Im really fascinated by how she used to do her eye makeup. Im going to try and work out how to do it, Iv tried once already but couldnt do it, but Im determined that Im going to have Twiggy eyes!



I think Geisha makeup is beautiful too, and I love the clothes. I might do it some time for a night out. In Camden I bought a chinese parasol as I couldnt afford the gorgeous kimono style wraps or dressing gowns, but maybe Ill ask my mum for one for my 17th :)

I want her hair!

At the moment my hairs really short, and yes thats not news because my hair is pixie length
but I went a little bit power craxy in the hairdressers on saturday..! Its kinda cool, but at the same time its weird, Its a bit star trekkish, like I couldnt be any closer than possible to getting to the razor stage on one side, but I thought if I get it short I wont have to get it done for a good while as my hair literally grows like Harry Potter. But im wanting long hair now which dosent make sense because Iv just had it cut shorter than ever, but I dont really fancy sporting a hairdo like one of the guys from ABBA (the growing stage) in the midst of summer. So Im gonna grow it as soon as its acceptable to live in a knitted hat, and then buy extensions and have it super long to my waist :D And brown! because its too hard to maintain red hair. I did have a fantasy of having really long blue hair, like Marge Simspon, but have not yet took that leap. Baby pink would be cool too..

This week, I have changed quite drastically my idea of what direction I want to go with my life :)
I began trying to decide between
University in London, serious degree and what not
or Travelling, bit less concrete but I think thats how that one goes

But a woman I work with, Fran, was telling me on Wednesday about how she travelled throughout her life and lived in Greece for 16 years, and has had so many jobs, it sounded like shed had a really interesting life, and it really inspired me
so yeh, I think I want to live in different countries, and just see where life takes me, not the other way around, well at least for a bit
I would like to go to university somewhere along the line, but I just think If I go when Im 18, before Iv even experienced anything else, realistically I dont think Ill go travelling after, because Ill be in debt so I wont be able to afford it, and I suspect Ill be all focused on my career

I think I must come across like a really serious person on this! But its just because writing in this is like writing in a diary. Well its not really, because I avoid writing about personal things and what not because this is still the internet! But my diary dosent have really personal things in it either, my diary actually dosent have anything that means much in it because I dont like the idea of writing my most personal thoughts on paper, I think because then your vulnerable, and somehow it feels worth less
But anyway :) Im gona go up to bed because its 2.23am!

Throwaway

Dont you hate it when you are somewhere, or were somewhere, or were in some moment that you really really wish you had a picture of, but you didnt have a camera with you? It bugs me sooo much. At the moment Im really wishing I had my throwaway camera with me in that old antique shop I talked about in my latest blog. I shouldnt really be saying this because I have a pretty expensive digital camera which I havent been using for quite a while now, but I do prefer using throwaway cameras. Theyre my favourite posession, Iv got one photo left on my current one. Theyre just the best things to have, because I dont feel like Im removing myself from the situation when I quickly pull out my cheap throwaway and snap a picture because its a moment I dont want to forget. When you have a digital camera your really aware of it, and your in the mindset of taking pictures of everything so the world can see what youve done and that you were here, but when your taking pictures of everything (especially annoys me when people do it at gigs) your not actually in the moment so much. Throwaway cameras all the way! :D